THE COLOUR OF MADNESS
A Blog About Living with Mental Illness
Category: Catherine
Portraits
“There may be a great fire in our hearts, yet no one ever comes to warm himself at it, and the passers-by see only a wisp of smoke.” Vincent VanGough Sometimes I feel lonely. Lonely in a crowded house, lonely in a crowded mind.When… Continue Reading “Portraits”
I Am Me
“Authenticity. The quality I was so desperately seeking in others, was indeed the quality I was lacking and so desperately searching for within myself. The writers and poets were in fact mirrors to my own deepest self-needs and self-desires.”
Carry On
The mood can seem to shift so fast, We’ve been fighting a harsh and unwinnable past. Now time is running out and grief clouds our overcast mind.But the storm in our head’s nearly over,I’m ready to let go of my rein.Carry on fighting my… Continue Reading “Carry On”
Death’s Playbook
It’s hard to fight against such a friendly foe, to ignore its whispering promises of a rest long awaited, a peace long forgotten when one is so desperately sought. The distorted images of a thousand yesterday’s and infinite tomorrow’s play over and over in… Continue Reading “Death’s Playbook”
The Moods of the Sea
There’s something magical about the moods of the sea. Calm waves gently lapping on the shore, bringing forth tiny secrets from the vast depths that lay behind them. Little shells line the beach marking the edge of yesterday’s tide, once homes to the critters… Continue Reading “The Moods of the Sea”
Saying Goodbye
My Dad died on the 28th of December 2020.A good 10 days after a middle aged doctor in situationally inappropriate bright red Christmas themed scrubs told us he’d had a massive hemorrhagic stroke and would pass away within 48hrs. He was a fighter, my… Continue Reading “Saying Goodbye”
Stagnant
It’s chemo week so I’m sharing some old journals from the others again, this wasn’t dated but I’m guessing it’s around 2 or 3 years old (?) – Kate My body is tired but my mind is agitated and restless, a metallic taste invades… Continue Reading “Stagnant”
It’s still 2020…
I walked through the now familiar brightly adorned walls of the cancer centre with my mother and frail looking father shuffling a few paces behind us, we pressed the button on the worlds slowest elevator and headed up to the oncologists office on level… Continue Reading “It’s still 2020…”
Brave Girls Don’t Cry
New Blog Post on a memory that resurfaced about the night I thought I’d lose my Mum.
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After
Children born today will never remember a world before this crisis. Before we knew how good we had it, how lucky we were. How much we took our civilisation for granted. In the weeks and days before the pandemic really took hold, panic buying… Continue Reading “After”
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