Category: depression

Que Sera

Life is a roller coaster. We all start out the same way, screaming bundles of DNA and neurons ready to be sculpted into a self aware conscious being. We don’t know if it’s going to be a short life or a long one, happy… Continue Reading “Que Sera”

Ashes to Ashes

The nation is on fire, coastal towns and country villages decimated. Homes, jobs and lives lost to the flames, the disaster is far from over and the aftermath is an unfathomable problem that feels too far in the future to start thinking about. It’s… Continue Reading “Ashes to Ashes”

Never

Never is a long time, it’s as close as forever is far away and it feels equally as hopeless. It is a crossed over line in the black and white abyss of thoughts that circles around our loose attempt to cling to life a… Continue Reading “Never”

Chameleon Keys

I think I just need a hug and a good cry. I’m so caught up in my head that I feel can’t escape anymore. I’m aware there are moments of clarity but I can’t remember them. I feel like I live only in this… Continue Reading “Chameleon Keys”

Dear Customers,

So I’m having to write a whole lot of “sorry we can’t take on your job after all” letters to people at the moment, people like you. I know I’m keeping it pretty vague, things like “due to unforeseen circumstances” and “we apologise”. Although… Continue Reading “Dear Customers,”

(Welfare) Check, Mate.

So, remember that little passive aggressive tweet to the bank I mentioned in my last post? Well apparently it caused a flood of panic for them and their little anti law suit brigade which resulted in me receiving a “welfare” check from our little… Continue Reading “(Welfare) Check, Mate.”

Square Wheels

We’ve had a few emergency psychiatrist appointments recently, due to a continuous state of fight or flight and yo yo like mood swings that include but aren’t limited to paranoia, mild delusions and an intermittent, sudden yet intense need to die immediately. M calmed… Continue Reading “Square Wheels”

All Out of Magic Wands

I want to die right now. I’m just so fucking exhausted and sick of being in my head, I don’t understand myself and frankly I’ve got no desire to even try to anymore. Maybe this is why some people actually wanted lobotomy’s. Just fuck… Continue Reading “All Out of Magic Wands”

Surrounded By Myself

  I’ve been struggling.  I’m overwhelmed with responsibilities, frustrated by my inability to fix everything for everyone and disillusioned by the current political climate here in Australia, Hell, the world. But mostly I feel trapped, trapped by the very things I love the most,… Continue Reading “Surrounded By Myself”

Ava

I warn you this is a long one, I talked a lot about Ava in my book, she was after all my best friend for a long time. Ava, kind, caring, formidable, smart as a whip with a genius level IQ, she was the… Continue Reading “Ava”