Category: Dissociation Stuff

Surrounded By Myself

  I’ve been struggling.  I’m overwhelmed with responsibilities, frustrated by my inability to fix everything for everyone and disillusioned by the current political climate here in Australia, Hell, the world. But mostly I feel trapped, trapped by the very things I love the most,… Continue Reading “Surrounded By Myself”

Thirsty Dissociation

Winter is bleak. Or maybe I’m bleak…  I’ve written about 10 lines of 10 different blog posts in the last week but I’ve lacked the enthusiasm to finish any of them.    I feel like I don’t know who I am right now, I… Continue Reading “Thirsty Dissociation”

Pandora’s Paradox

You know what I seem to have discovered recently? Much to my confusion and subsequent awe at the capabilities of the human mind… I figured out what caused me to start becoming suicidal before the age of 8 and why it developed into a… Continue Reading “Pandora’s Paradox”

Bipolar Disorder, it is What it is.

My biggest failure in life right now is my continued expectation of a clear-cut black and white scientific explanation of my unusual thought processes to be handed to me on a silver platter by a well-spoken Englishman. This is to be immediately followed by… Continue Reading “Bipolar Disorder, it is What it is.”

Living in a Strange & Foreign World

Right now I look around the room, the walls bend and curve oh so slightly in time to the pulse of the universe and shadows slip in and out of 3D formation. I am wondering how I got here, I’m lying on a bed… Continue Reading “Living in a Strange & Foreign World”

Two Words

I was triggered unexpectedly by the movie playing on the television, it took my breath for just a second but it was hearing you utter those two words when I commented on my thoughts that broke me. The ones that rang out spontaneously and… Continue Reading “Two Words”

The Many Me’s & Finally Fighting Back

Yesterday I had what I could class as one of the most brief but intense anxiety attacks of my life. What made it unusual was the cause and the fact that it wasn’t really mine but that of one of “The Others”. I want… Continue Reading “The Many Me’s & Finally Fighting Back”