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Catastrophic Ecstasy

I’m tired of all my emotional extremes, they’re slowly breaking me. Even when the bipolar is quiet my ability to turn mountains into molehills on a dime truly astounds me. I seem to subconsciously love to watch myself burn and then writhe around in…

Free Fall

It took 20 minutes to descend from 35,000 ft to the earths surface below me and less than 20 seconds to plummet from the 18th floor of the skyscraper hotel I was staying in, all the way down to the ground. Both were of…

Dying From Embarrassment

Embarrassment is my strongest kryptonite.  When I am shamefully embarrassed I can go straight from happy go lucky to suicidal with no in between time.  I’m okay with mild embarrassment about lots of things, ie acting like a dickhead on the internet, wearing my…

Thirsty Dissociation

Winter is bleak. Or maybe I’m bleak…  I’ve written about 10 lines of 10 different blog posts in the last week but I’ve lacked the enthusiasm to finish any of them.    I feel like I don’t know who I am right now, I…

Just Call the F*ing Helpline

You know what is silly? I got so overwhelmed, upset and suicidal recently that I finally actually called Lifeline. That’s not the silly part, that was the smart part, the silly part is the reason I was calling was because I was feeling really…

Psychosomatic Pain & Feeling Like an Idiot

Note: This was written a few weeks ago, forewarning – it is very ‘woe is me’ and completely un-inspirational but I thought I’d share it anyway. I am severely frustrated right now because my hand/forearm cramps are acting up again, both sides but predominately…

When Mothers Leave Their Babies

*Kira turned to look at me for a moment from the passenger seat and gave a weary ‘I guess this is it’ anxious half-smile, her eyes were glistening with the tears she was trying so hard not to let out in front of her…

Pandora’s Paradox

You know what I seem to have discovered recently? Much to my confusion and subsequent awe at the capabilities of the human mind… I figured out what caused me to start becoming suicidal before the age of 8 and why it developed into a…

Is Suicide 100% Preventable?

The awareness campaigns have good hearts, they are filled with messages of hope and positivity, their aim is to remind people that they can always choose life! But when they proclaim that suicide is 100% preventable, they are sending a message that I feel…

Recovery

My Final Post

Some days we wake up ready to tackle the world, some days we wake up wondering why we are still in it. Some days the future isn’t just bleak, it has vanished all together, the perfect fantasy land from a long forgotten yesterday has…

Bipolar Disorder, it is What it is.

My biggest failure in life right now is my continued expectation of a clear-cut black and white scientific explanation of my unusual thought processes to be handed to me on a silver platter by a well-spoken Englishman. This is to be immediately followed by…

Charles Heath - Author

Thrills, Spills, and just a dash of Romance

depressed earthlings

we are not alone

The Pensieve

A homonym of pensive meaning deeply, seriously thoughtful. Though, it's also a pun, the 'sieve' part of the word alluding to the object's function of sorting meanings from a mass of thoughts or memories. (Source: Pottermore)

Bittersweet turns

Deep Down Inside...

Dear M

the secrets we wish we could tell you...

2 girls, 1 gun

obsessively suicidal, compulsively blogging

Storm in a Wine Glass

I used to drink and now I don't

PsiHub

A Hub where we discuss Psychiatry and everything mental health related!

Her Patchwork Heart

A BLOG ABOUT BEING PAINFULLY HUMAN

Life In The Eyes Of Lauren

Struggling with mental health, I was sat on a psych ward and inspired to start my very own blog! So here we are, welcome to life’s in the eyes of lauren where I’ll be tackling difficult topics and sharing my personal experiences, mainly focusing on mental health but also social services, the care system, living away from my biological family, school struggles and just life in general! i am writing to help poeple, if that means ive helped one person, ive achieved my goal. I hope you enjoy reading, Good Vibes Only xoxo

Bluewrensandbutterflies

A Journey of discovery and self love.

The Flirty Feminist

The blog of an eclectic & eccentric woman

Flowers In The Brain

Mental health & day to day life

Elan Mudrow

Smidgens