THE COLOUR OF MADNESS
A Blog About Living with Mental Illness
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The Moods of the Sea
There’s something magical about the moods of the sea. Calm waves gently lapping on the shore, bringing forth tiny secrets from the vast depths that lay behind them. Little shells line the beach marking the edge of yesterday’s tide, once homes to the critters… Continue Reading “The Moods of the Sea”
Many Hats
Tell no one of your storyTell no one of your woesTell no one of your secretsTell no one where you go.I have 100 hats for the 100 people in my head,the ones I don’t remember and the ones I still regret.Together we told our… Continue Reading “Many Hats”
Tomorrow
I’ve been burning down invisible bridges,setting my heart on fire.Hiding in the shadows of a memory,collecting my fading scars Maybe the worlds still turning,leaving me in its wake.Maybe time is still passing, while I keep on raising the stakes. What if I lose who… Continue Reading “Tomorrow”
Cancer Update
Tomorrow morning we have our first set of CT scans since starting chemo. We’ve had 5 of 12 rounds of the chemo combo known as “folfiri” which is a combination of fluorouracil, irinotecan and folinic acid, we get this via IV infusion every two… Continue Reading “Cancer Update”
The Suicide Dress
**Trigger Warning: Eating Disorders, Suicidal ideation. If you are feeling triggered please call your local suicide hotline. I remember the evening I bought the dress, it was 2013 and I was thumbing through a sale rack killing time before a psychology appointment and halfheartedly… Continue Reading “The Suicide Dress”
Peritonectomy
It’s been a big week, crazy week in fact and the short version is that I finally have a date for the peritonectomy surgery and it’s next week. Tuesday next week. Sunday night we head to Sydney ready for the pre op appointment on… Continue Reading “Peritonectomy”
Old Baggage, New Bag
I’d be lying if I told you I hadn’t googled “does an ileostomy cause weight loss” before googling how the procedure to divert my partially digested foods into an external bag actually works; and I’m embarrassed to say how disappointed I was with the… Continue Reading “Old Baggage, New Bag”
Anorexia loves Cancer
There is a whole lot of frustration in being told you’re dying of cancer yet still being randomly bombarded by that pesky old Eating Disorder – I mean intellectually, what the hell does it matter if we eat cake? We’ll be dead soon anyway!… Continue Reading “Anorexia loves Cancer”
Embers
It’s odd lying here staring at the ceiling unsure if it’s the last night you’ll ever spend in this room, in this house. The threat of the fire has been lingering for months now, but this is the first time I’ve actively started planning… Continue Reading “Embers”
Ashes to Ashes
The nation is on fire, coastal towns and country villages decimated. Homes, jobs and lives lost to the flames, the disaster is far from over and the aftermath is an unfathomable problem that feels too far in the future to start thinking about. It’s… Continue Reading “Ashes to Ashes”
