THE COLOUR OF MADNESS
A Blog About Living with Mental Illness
Tag: hypomania
Strawberry Bubbles
Today I felt elated, my problems of yesterday just magically fell away. Today the colours of the earth shon brightly and vividly just for me. Today I had alcohol. Today I talked too much about personal things I shouldn’t say. Today I spent a… Continue Reading “Strawberry Bubbles”
Bipolar Ashes
No wonder I have intermittent ‘delusions’ about existing within a man made video gamesque style matrix reality, God knows I must have died 1000 times by now and yet each time I find myself miraculously resurrected again, rebirthed from the bipolar ashes, guns a… Continue Reading “Bipolar Ashes”
The Noisy Now
I’m craving something right now but I don’t know exactly what, it’s like a deep urge to take/do something that’s going to fill this gnawing void in the back of my throat. I’m buzzing with those eager anticipatory fight or flight butterflies, not the… Continue Reading “The Noisy Now”
Happiness & The Power of You
Happiness is something that happens within conscious thought, happiness is an emotion just like sadness. It is something we have the ability to feel even when things in our lives are difficult, even when we are still aware of physical pain, It might not… Continue Reading “Happiness & The Power of You”
Do Ant’s Sleep?
This was probably the most unusual question I was asked in my early days working at the pet store, it was queried over the phone by a gentleman with the most aristocratic sounding British accent imaginable. I was left for a few seconds trying… Continue Reading “Do Ant’s Sleep?”
Euphoric Awakening?
*The air around me is literally sparkling, I can see every molecule that makes up existence itself dancing and fizzing around me. There are so many dimensions 5,6,7,8,9 I don’t even know, they appear infinite and yet structured, moving in strange patterns of planned… Continue Reading “Euphoric Awakening?”
Coming Of Age
I watched a documentary yesterday and there was a guy on it who was suffering from ‘delusions’ who was convinced he was going to die on or before his 18th birthday because the voices told him he would. He had tried to kill himself… Continue Reading “Coming Of Age”
When Your Inner Voice Is Trying To Kill You
I always tell people to ‘trust their gut’ when they are making decisions, generally it is a statement I wholeheartedly agree with, but when I am unwell I can’t tell if my gut instinct is trying to keep me safe anymore, or if it… Continue Reading “When Your Inner Voice Is Trying To Kill You”
Leap Of Faith
*note: I wrote this yesterday, when I was very scattered. I’m feeling much better today but in the interests of writing honestly I thought I would post it anyway. What exactly am I running from? Melancholy has been my default setting for as long… Continue Reading “Leap Of Faith”
Yes, Doctor.
So as previously mentioned, I have been avoiding my mental health ‘team’ a little bit lately, if I’m honest, this is mostly because I have been ‘elevated’ and I wish to continue being so and was scared of having my happiness shut down or… Continue Reading “Yes, Doctor.”
