THE COLOUR OF MADNESS
A Blog About Living with Mental Illness
Tag: mania
Descent
I am trapped inside a mind that either lights up like a Christmas Tree letting in more and more wonder or one that has shut down completely, abandoning all home and reason. I’m exhausted. Why can I find enlightenment with such intensity only to… Continue Reading “Descent”
Psychosis or Spirituality?
The world has birthed us right inside the greatest work of fiction ever written, the one we write for ourselves. Life. It is a book only we can read and only in the capacity afforded to us. We share part of our stories with… Continue Reading “Psychosis or Spirituality?”
The Importance of Perspectives
Yesterday I saw my psychiatrist M. I consider it as my best session to date because in all the madness and confusion of my last few weeks I had a monumental breakthrough. I have trusted M with many things, however I hadn’t yet been… Continue Reading “The Importance of Perspectives”
Cold Water
Do you ever wake up feeing like your heart is squeezing blood up in through the little veins in your throat, faster and faster until a metallic tang invades your tongue and taste buds, your chest vibrates, someone is grabbing hold of your sternum… Continue Reading “Cold Water”
Do Ant’s Sleep?
This was probably the most unusual question I was asked in my early days working at the pet store, it was queried over the phone by a gentleman with the most aristocratic sounding British accent imaginable. I was left for a few seconds trying… Continue Reading “Do Ant’s Sleep?”
Birth Of A New Brain – A Book Review
I have been promising the wonderful author Dyane Harwood a review for her excellent memoir ‘Birth Of A New Brain’ for weeks now. Dyane and I started chatting on Twitter and she was kind enough to send me a copy of her book. The… Continue Reading “Birth Of A New Brain – A Book Review”
Twinkle, Twinkle, Little Star
My nails are painted navy blue with silver sparkles, I had them done like that a few weeks ago to represent my connection with the universe that I felt so strongly at the time. Of all the billions of beautiful stars twinkling in the… Continue Reading “Twinkle, Twinkle, Little Star”
When Your Inner Voice Is Trying To Kill You
I always tell people to ‘trust their gut’ when they are making decisions, generally it is a statement I wholeheartedly agree with, but when I am unwell I can’t tell if my gut instinct is trying to keep me safe anymore, or if it… Continue Reading “When Your Inner Voice Is Trying To Kill You”
Trying Not To Fall
I am typing this on my lap top, I like the weight of the keys under my fingers better than my new Apple Mac, the one I bought on a whim the day before I dyed my hair blue, living in the moment and… Continue Reading “Trying Not To Fall”
Yes, Doctor.
So as previously mentioned, I have been avoiding my mental health ‘team’ a little bit lately, if I’m honest, this is mostly because I have been ‘elevated’ and I wish to continue being so and was scared of having my happiness shut down or… Continue Reading “Yes, Doctor.”
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