THE COLOUR OF MADNESS
A Blog About Living with Mental Illness
Tag: perspectives
Labyrinth of Shame
I say something insignificant and he answers abruptly. The vibe is off, I look at him.That expression on his face, the sudden weight in the atmosphere instantly fractures my heart and it triggers someone inside, her pain always makes me want to die instantly.… Continue Reading “Labyrinth of Shame”
A Dissociative Experience
I’ve been trawling through some of our old writings recently and found the below. I think it is a reasonable example of a dissociative experience and ‘co-consciousness’ written by one of the others a year or so ago and I thought it might be… Continue Reading “A Dissociative Experience”
Stagnant
It’s chemo week so I’m sharing some old journals from the others again, this wasn’t dated but I’m guessing it’s around 2 or 3 years old (?) – Kate My body is tired but my mind is agitated and restless, a metallic taste invades… Continue Reading “Stagnant”
Part 3: Meeting Diamond
It’s funny how the mind plays tricks on you, worse perhaps for those of us with dissociative disorders who experience time as anything but linear. I knew I’d been to New Zealand as a child but it wasn’t until writing “The Devil’s Wife” that… Continue Reading “Part 3: Meeting Diamond”
Broken Words
I am starting to lose myself again, I’ve had the burning need to lock myself away somewhere alone and just write until I’ve processed my entire life for a week now. I had a series of epiphanies that cracked open a box inside and… Continue Reading “Broken Words”
Drama Queen
You know those people that never shut up? It feels like their life has been an endless soap opera and it’s exhausting to listen to them moaning and complaining. Surely they bring this shit upon themselves, surely they love the drama, feed off the… Continue Reading “Drama Queen”
Time Capsule
If I am an adult, I must have once been a child.If I am married, I must have said I do.If I am a mother, I must have given birth.If I am a friend then I must have spent time with others.If I have… Continue Reading “Time Capsule”
Out Loud
I’m getting frustrated with parts of us,Recovery from trauma is a slow process, I understand that but We have been in therapy 5 years, longer actually because we had a different therapist before this one an I think we saw her for a couple… Continue Reading “Out Loud”
Mirror, Mirror
Mirror, mirror on the wall, who’s the ugliest of them all? I have written about this subject before, probably several times in various ways, but I will bore you all again anyway because, well, it’s my blog and I can do what I want… Continue Reading “Mirror, Mirror”
What a difference a year makes.
I have been going through old unpublished writings from my drafts folder and stumbled across this one. I can’t believe how much things have changed since this was written, though I guess 2020 was pretty much a decade long. If only we could go… Continue Reading “What a difference a year makes.”
