THE COLOUR OF MADNESS
A Blog About Living with Mental Illness
Tag: the others
A Dissociative Experience
I’ve been trawling through some of our old writings recently and found the below. I think it is a reasonable example of a dissociative experience and ‘co-consciousness’ written by one of the others a year or so ago and I thought it might be… Continue Reading “A Dissociative Experience”
Yesterday’s Tears
Sometimes I suddenly feel like crying, there’s no overt trigger, no relevant traumas, just sadness. It washes over me slowly at first, imbedding itself into my core over moments, hours, until time is an unobtainable memory. Grounding is impossible as objects, sounds and smells… Continue Reading “Yesterday’s Tears”
Yesterday’s Tears
Sometimes I suddenly feel like crying, there’s no overt trigger, no relevant traumas, just sadness. It washes over me slowly at first, imbedding itself into my core over moments, hours, until time is an unobtainable memory. Grounding is impossible as objects, sounds and smells… Continue Reading “Yesterday’s Tears”
Old Wounds
Holy mother of fuck. You know that little voice of reason that tells you not to look into something further, to let it be and that you’re probably better off not knowing what happened next? Listen to that voice. Seriously. I don’t care how… Continue Reading “Old Wounds”
The Girl in the Hallway
I sit on the dirty white shag pile carpet in the hallway of my childhood home and glance up catching a sudden movement from the corner of my eye. There’s a young girl looking at me intently, she has long blonde wavy hair, wise… Continue Reading “The Girl in the Hallway”
Suzi tried to make a video
And she’s so excited by the “amazing advancement in technology” (I swear she’s 60yrs old sometimes) that I thought I’d embarrass all of us by uploading this video of her trying to use the Clips app to the interwebs for all eternity. It’s extra… Continue Reading “Suzi tried to make a video”
Update
Okay, some of you might get a bit lost by this post. This is Suzi and Katie giving you a bit of an update, Kate’s struggling at the moment and not on social media or writing much, she’s okay though, she had a nice… Continue Reading “Update”
The Many Me’s & Finally Fighting Back
Yesterday I had what I could class as one of the most brief but intense anxiety attacks of my life. What made it unusual was the cause and the fact that it wasn’t really mine but that of one of “The Others”. I want… Continue Reading “The Many Me’s & Finally Fighting Back”
Fragments of a Fragile Soul
Kate saw someone from my past recently but either didn’t share or didn’t let me remember what happened, and now they have quietly crept into my subconscious. I am dreaming uneasy dreams as your movement wakes me gently from my slumber. I nuzzle into… Continue Reading “Fragments of a Fragile Soul”
Maybe There’s Hope After All
Last week when I walked into my psychiatrist’s office I was suicidal and broken, I had left feeling even worse than I started which was only fueled by a parting comment by my psych about eating cake which I wrote/whined about here, anyway, she… Continue Reading “Maybe There’s Hope After All”
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